Why awkwardness is our own barrier

The title is pretty misleading, huh? There are so many emotions we can actually imagine that actually take place in us. Most of us are pretty aware that basically, there are 4 generalized emotions. Joy, anger, sadness & fear. ( Inside out reference as we all know HAHAHA)  But, I feel like there's always this emotion that often goes unnoticeable. It isn't anything like anger or joy. Neither it is anything like sadness or fear but rather, it's more of an in-between. Personally, feeling this way sucks so much. Awkwardness. Gosh, I literally hate this feeling & I can guarantee people are feeling this way at least once everyday but really, what is awkwardness? Basically, feeling uncomfortable or not at ease. Well, this was according to the dictionary but rather, I like to think that awkwardness is a lack of confidence. Perhaps, because of someone's presence or act, you just literally want to squirm into a hole and just hide from everything that can possibly exist. I must say, that no matter how confident a person is, there will always be something or someone who makes him/her feel awkward at a point of time. This isn't just purely uncomfortable but I like to think that although there are cases where people meet strangers and get all uncomfortable, there are also cases where certain people make you want to avoid them & really, just stop existing. Why?

It all goes back to our complex inferiority. If someone who has always been feeling conscious about her height stands next to a friend whose height is perfect according to her, he/she would feel inferior. Seems a little over exaggerated, right? But, honestly speaking, things like this really do happen. We just don't notice, or choose to not face the truth. There isn't really any thing we can do about the people we feel uncomfortable with because the problem doesn't lie with them. But rather, us. It's totally alright and it's okay to feel this way. ITS NOT OUR FAULT. We're humans and humans feel so what wrong lies in it? 

Accept yourself. Your flaws & everything you feel conscious about. Take them all in. They're all part of you and it's beautiful because in this world where people are often too busy or too conscious of what others think, it's honestly, really beautiful, for a person to stay true to himself/herself. How rare is it to have someone not losing himself/herself when too many, MANY people lose themselves to fit in with the norm & people. It's okay to be the one choosing the odds. It's okay to be the only one with weirdness literally bursting out of you. It's truly rare. Don't adjust yourselves to people's standards to feel better about yourself. I've always believed that you should be surrounded by people not to make yourself feel better , but to enrich your life with more beautiful things. Awkwardness, psh. Nothing really seems too big of a deal, actually. It's just that we feel a lot and overthink too many things. Take a step back, relax a little. No one is actually really superior to anyone. It's just the inner thoughts in us creating this illusion, Each and everyone of us has our own insecurities and we're all flawed in many ways but it's never supposed to be an issue because God never wanted us to be perfect. He created us differently with different talents and specialities. And together with our good, came the flaws. To accept them is to accept ourselves. To embrace the flaws and make them an important significance of us is really what creates that sparkle in each of us. Don't compare yourself to anyone, don't. Why should we when we're all uniquely different yet beautiful in our own ways? 

To you, who's ever once felt that way, inferior and awkward, I just really want to let you know that you don't have to do anything to become less awkward and more sociable. People are coming up with more solutions but the only thing I've ever believed is to be yourself. Don't attempt to create the you who's really not you but that 'you' you were once. Playing under the rain and saying whatever comes to mind. Don't tense up, be yourself because that's what we've all forgotten all these years after we turned 10. 10 because I remembered people telling me to grow up and plan my future so that I'm ahead of others. But along the way, I finally realized that all we should actually be wanting to do is to not let anyone dull that sparkle in us and to not ever lose yourself. Be who you are and you'll find the right people who love you for who you are. Forget about being popular or hoping to be accepted by the rest. Accept yourself, firstly. 

You're not alone, step by step, and the day will come where you're applaud for yourself, the you who has stayed true all the way. It's never too late. 

Best Of Luck ❤️